It was feminism that did it. Feminism and my own redundant reproductive organs; both some misplaced indicators of womanhood that I did not, could not, connect with. It was that feeling that other people have described before, more eloquently than me, of feeling wrong, of feeling you’re doing something wrong, acting wrong, failing at being what you appear to be. I appeared to be a […]
Identity
Shameless
I saw, and then instantly lost, a quote online yesterday: “We have to teach women and girls to not feel shame”. I am a person who doesn’t feel a lot of shame, despite finding myself in humiliating or ridiculous situations with shameful regularity, and that quote made me consider why, and how, I got to this point of blissful indifference. If I was the kind […]
Erotica / Identity / Kinks
Ice Cream Sundaes (or, introducing vanilla to other flavours)
Rather than a single scoop of ice cream, I prefer a sundae. Let’s start with an indulgent, rich flavour such as chocolate or caramel, before layering creamy, complex vanilla on top. It’s best to be generous with your scoops; fill the glass until little drips begin to crawl over the rim. Then ladle on something fruity, whether it’s fresh chunks or cooked slowly until it’s […]
Dating / Erotica / Identity
Top to Bottom: becoming more submissive
There was a time where all I could think about, dream about, was fucking someone with a strap-on. I’d make their hole slippery wet with spit, tongue, and lube and ease the silicone inside them, either popping through a tight arsehole or pushing into a soft cunt. I wasn’t picky. Being in control of penetration, being an extension of it, that was a power I […]
Body Matters / Eating Disorders / Identity
What’s in a name? Pt. 2
CW: eating disorders, weight-loss There are times when eating everything isn’t sexy. Sometimes after eating a McDonalds, I don’t joyfully suck dick; I throw up. Not deliberately; involuntarily, due to the sheer volume of food I’ve eaten in a short space of time, the combination of the two causing my digestive system to shudder and churn and billow, and the storm that was brewing suddenly […]
Audio Porn / Erotica / Identity / Kinks
What’s in a name? Pt. 1
Listen as audio The first time I ever sucked dick, we’d just been to McDonalds and it tasted like strawberry milkshake. It was actually my first time in a McDonalds too; what a day. I don’t remember what I did, what it felt like, or what his cum tasted of; but the sight of the smooth pink head of his dick about to split my […]
Identity
Bombshell
White blonde. Each short pigtail is puffy, like a dandelion clock ready to float away. A confident sideways grin; a “yeah, try it then” grin. A tiny but fearless imp in a pinafore dress. This is me on my first day of school, aged 4 and a half. Sandy blonde. The severity of the bob scraping my jaw. An easy, open smile; the smile you […]