Eating Disorders

One Year

CW: binge eating disorder, body dysmorphia Exactly one year ago today, you decided you wanted to get better.  How you came to that decision is still a mystery to you. There was a boredom, a tiredness, of being unwell. Of binging and feeling sick and feeling shit and not being able to move without pain and crying and getting into debt and apologising to and […]

Body Matters / Dating

Punching

CW: body dysmorphia, eating disorders, mention of self-mutilation I’m seeing this guy I really like. I keep referring to him as Perfect Guy, because to me, he is. He is everything I’ve hoped for in a date and more (the superstitious side of me, tiny as it is, can’t bear to refer to him as a potential partner just yet). I won’t bore you with […]

Body Matters / Dating / Romance

Chemistry Lessons

CW: body dysmorphia A guy just ended things with me by saying the chemistry wasn’t right. By telling me that he had liked me more when we were messaging, than in person. I wish I could say that it was the first time someone had said that to me, that there was no “spark”, but I can’t. It’s not even the second time this year […]