This week, I renewed this website for another year. It almost didn’t happen: I left it to the very last minute, after weeks of ignored reminder emails, before the service ceased. I spent the time considering whether I should keep it going, or let it quietly die, seeing as I haven’t published anything new in so many months. I actually haven’t written anything new, to […]
Eating Disorders
One Year
CW: binge eating disorder, body dysmorphia Exactly one year ago today, you decided you wanted to get better. How you came to that decision is still a mystery to you. There was a boredom, a tiredness, of being unwell. Of binging and feeling sick and feeling shit and not being able to move without pain and crying and getting into debt and apologising to and […]
Body Matters / Eating Disorders / Identity
What’s in a name? Pt. 2
CW: eating disorders, weight-loss There are times when eating everything isn’t sexy. Sometimes after eating a McDonalds, I don’t joyfully suck dick; I throw up. Not deliberately; involuntarily, due to the sheer volume of food I’ve eaten in a short space of time, the combination of the two causing my digestive system to shudder and churn and billow, and the storm that was brewing suddenly […]